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Final Reflection piece

So this summer course has been different for me because I feel like this is the most stressful that I’ve ever been because I have been juggling so much class work with working outside of school to support my family and myself. I genuinely enjoyed having you as a teacher Ms. Wood I feel like you put in your all to make sure we got whatever we needed from you. I appreciate everything that you have done for me and the whole class as a whole. I also feel like this semester I could have done so much better and put in more effort if I wasn’t so busy and stressed. I did learn a lot this semester even if it doesn’t appear as though I did learn anything at all. I learned that If I want to get something done then I’m going to have to put in the work to get what I want. I can’t slack anymore because this is my career and my future. It is my job and my job only to make sure that I get what I need to get done to truly succeed so although I learned this from college this semester I’m not proud of all of my work, only some. I feel like I started the semester on the right track then I sorta just lost myself somewhere in the middle with trying to make deadlines and trying to balance work and school. I also learned that I need to put aside my procrastinating habits so that I can get everything done on time so that I’m no longer put in a position where I would feel like I’m stressing too much. I feel like if we had more creative story-based assignments then it would have been very fun for me to do makeup because I love to write short stories. It reflects my true level of creativity. I liked the first assignment that we did on our own because it allowed me to be able to express myself through writing and I found that very funny. Something that went well with this assignment specifically was the fact that it was our only assignment because we were just getting started and there wasn’t much to do other than that so people’s ideas were able to flow a lot better without feeling so mentally drained. That’s where I feel like things went wrong for everyone in the class because people started to feel overworked and that’s when people started falling behind and not putting in the best effort that they were all capable of doing. I’m sure everyone has their reasons for being late with their work but I appreciate you miss the wood for actually caring enough because you could have been very mean and strict but you weren’t. To answer the question, if I were to choose to write with more freedom over anything else I would prefer that because It allows me to be able to work better without needing to research and cavern for evidence then spend like 15 minutes trying to explain the evidence that I had found. As for grading requirements, I think for the short amount of time that we did have to do work we should not be graded so harshly because to truly write great pieces of work that will take way more time and we just didn’t have that. Between all the academic support hours and all the mandatory seek events, it became really hard to do everything to the best of my ability. If there was less work given I truly believe students wouldn’t have such a hard time doing their assignments on time and having it be their best

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first essay

This I no longer believe”

I have been debating on what exactly to write because there’s just so many things to write about regarding this topic. At first I was I say just is best here like “just going to write about school” going to write about school, But then I changed my mind to something more fun like my passion for building PCs and gaming, But that also didn’t feel right writing so I have finally decided to write about something that’s a little more personal that I personally believe fits this prompt best, and what I didn’t believe I could do before but can now believe I can do is really accepting things, learning from them, and moving on rather then letting it build up inside and just exploding one day from keeping it in. I feel like this is the best thing to write about because not only will this fill up the pages easier for me but I also get to reflect on myself as an individual and see how far i’ve gone in my journey by writing about it and reading about it. So let’s get started shall we. 

Growing up I didn’t exactly have the best childhood, in fact I don’t really remember much good times about it, everything that’s happened to me still really lingers around my head from time to time mentally it can be draining. For a long time I was angry and I didn’t really know why. It affected me in a very negative way because I’ve lost a lot of people I cared about because I didn’t know how to deal with my own problems for a very long time. I blamed other people for my pain instead of really sitting down and looking at myself and working on the things that I didn’t really like about myself. I found myself diggin this whole (hole or whole?) of my own self pity and that wasn’t valid. I spent so much time dwelling on my past that I didn’t allow myself to grow as a person. I learned during covid that I no longer wanted to be the person everyone hated because he didn’t have his shit together so I started my mental health journey through quarantine. 

My mental health journey has been the hardest journey I’ve ever faced. It was all going so well for a very long time, until I met a girl who made me feel like all my problems at first. For the first time in a long time I had felt happy in a way that I had never felt before. Everything was going well for me last year, I was in the gym, I looked great, and I was getting help. Then I met her. We were both in really dark places and we helped each other grow. We then of course as people are there for one another they fall in love. We had spent a lot of time together and we were happy. I don’t really know when it all went wrong. I just wish I still had my best friend. The relationship wasn’t the most healthy but we were there for each other. She made me a better man overall. But with all things they almost always end up coming to a end. The year of 2022 was supposed to be my year to to thrive- so far it has been the complete opposite. I didn’t think I was able to thrive before but then I did, but then I didn’t because worst years of life you should explain more on why “but then I did, but then I didn’t”. 

I had a shitty relationship with my parents, I was always so angry, and I took out on the people I loved.  That impacted my life negatively. I lost my best friend and I’m currently losing my mother to cancer. ts hitting me that I need to really change so that I can be the man that I meant to be,  I could be there for my family through these difficult times.

 I just recently started back my mental health journey, but this time I’m eager to move on with my life and grow, because for a long time I didn’t really believe in my ability to change and grow> I started going to the gym again but it’s very hard maintaining a good mindset while everything is falling apart . Sometimes, I feel like everything is going to be a setback in a way that  what do you mean by setback the way?it would all end up being worse than it was previously. I think that in order to really move on and grow I need to face my feelings head on, learn to accept change, see my flaws, and strengthen myself as an individual not just for my family but for myself I have a long journey to become the man I want to be because there’s just so much more to unpack about my life that I don’t really like talking about. I’m grateful for the people that I’ve met in my life regardless of our status in each other’s lives because they all taught me a very valuable lesson, which is that the only person that’s going to love me more than me is me. No one is going to save me, because that’s a journey I need to make myself so I can be better mentally. I didn’t believe that I was worth saving mentally because for a long time I had been in such a dark place that it felt pointless to even want to attempt moving out of it. Express your comfortability of being in a dark place. 

I started my process of self love was by, starting to self reflect on my actions and moods. I would write down how I was feeling for the day and I would also read over them to see what I did for that day and how I handled certain situations so that I could learn from it and benefit. I tried to get close friends to give me constructive criticism so that I would know exactly what I was doing wrong so that I could either fix it immediately or grow overtime. I found that of course as said before I have anger issues, but another thing I’m guilty of was being an asshole to people because I didn’t feel like I deserve anything good in my life so I tried to wreck it all before it all came crashing down like everything else in my life. This wasn’t healthy to do because it made me into a really shitty person with a shitty mindset. On top of all that I discovered that I also hate being alone as much as I hated myself at the time. It was really hard for me to be alone in any type of circumstance. It was nearly impossible for me to live at the time if I didn’t constantly feel loved by others. I would change who I was to please other people and not really focus on what really made me happy as an individual.

 Discovering these toxic traits about myself I was able to see what needed to be done so that I could be a better person. All these things that I learned all have a deeper meaning which connects back to my childhood with the attention seeking, which stems from the lack of affection that I received as a child because of the toxic household I grew up in. 

The point of even bringing up any of these strong points is to really see deeper into my own mind. Writing this essay about me has been hard because I’m trying to be as little specific as I possibly can because I can’t even imagine writing about everything right now. This kind of feels like my journal which is why my Ideas are kinda all over the place because I am just writing as I think literally and tbh this feels kinda relieving talking about my process regardless of the mental state that I am. because I didn’t believe that I was worth fighting for or changing for myself but with a little bit of time and patience I’m able to really strive towards being a better person overall. Someone who’s strong and kind, not mean and sad all the time. I’m able to truly work on myself and please myself rather than others because at the end of the day I only really have myself, SO FUCK IT> Live ya life because you only live once so love yourself, or atleast try because I sure am.

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Innterview

Scripted Interviews 

Good afternoon to my fellow authors. I have brought you all here to discuss a very serious topic that I hold dear to me. Today we are here to discuss the current issue that I believe is very much overlooked in modern day society. That issue is men’s mental health. Today I will be asking a series of questions and you all will have the opportunity to answer them to the best of your abilities and as honestly as possible since you’re all specialists in the matter. First off let me list the questions so that you can choose which ones to fully answer.

Do you feel as though Mental Health for men has been overlooked?

Do you believe that the more men’s mental health is neglected the more alone men will feel?

What can we do to address this current issue?

Dr. Goodman You can answer first with any question that you would like.

Thank you very much Mr. I’d gladly like to answer in order of the questions as stated so first of all I do believe that mental health has been overlooked as a whole for men because we live in a modern society where men are supposed to be viewed as strong and learn to really deal with their emotions. As for men’s mental health being neglected I have done research and found that women’s mental health is valued more today than mens.

Dr. Pinkman that’s all I have to conclude you can jump in when you’re ready 

Okay thank you Dr. Goodman I will answer the last question too the best of my ability. The way we can fix this is by working on facing the issue that’s men’s mental health so that we can have a better future for not just men but everyone. But thats enough talk from me time to pass it on to professor white.

Thank you DR.Pinkman I Will gladly build on your statement I believe that Men’s mental health should be addressed because it allows for people to grow as whole.

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My proposal

The topic that I plan to research is the importance of men’s mental health and how society has played a major role in the way that it is viewed today. The reasoning behind me even writing about this is because I want to be able to spread awareness. Men’s mentality is a common issue that is overlooked because society has these norms that men shouldn’t be able to express themselves because they are men and men are supposed to be able to keep it in and just move on with life. For a really long time masculinity was viewed as something that meant challenging others. Although masculinity can be toxic which causes some issues it’s also beneficial because it allows men to get their competitiveness under control. If masculinity was balanced with mental help then masculinity woulndt be the overall problem when it comes to toxic men.In order for a man to be toxic because of their masculinity they would have to be going through something mentally that pushed them to the point where they have become the problem. In the society that we currently live in, men’s mental health is overlooked while women are praised and acknowledged. I’m not saying that we need to stop caring about women, I’m saying that we need to start caring about the mental health of men who are going through it and feel as though they have nowhere else to turn so they bottle it up and keep it moving. The best possible way for the world to improve is to stop preaching that everyone is equal and matter and start actually doing something about it so that we could live in a world that actually thrives because everyone, especially men aren’t so messed up in the head and can actually function.

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Final

The Impacts of Social Interactions 

Christopher E Ramos

John Jay 

1.123, English 101

Ms Wood

7/26/222

Abstract

My essay is about the impacts of social interactions. This paper was written to spread awareness on how important it is as human beings to interact with one another because it benefits not only physically but mentally because it allows for people to connect with one another. Lacking the ability to do so can result in negative impacts on people as a whole.

For many years humans have thrived off of physical interactions with one another. Although some may say that physical interaction is something that isn’t meaningful, it is found to be quite the opposite as physical interaction is the cause of many things that we as a race see today. Physical interaction allows people to build a connection with one another and be able to thrive towards a better future. Physical interaction dates back to the beginning of time as it allows humans to connect and reproduce, humans ability to even interact this way allows civilization to thrive. This is where the pandemic comes into all of this as it puts a hold on the ability to interact with one another. For an entire year, the whole planet shut down from one another and did not interact which led to so many consequences. Physical interaction is important and when it’s stripped away from anyone it will lead to the downfall of life itself. 

Physical interaction has been a big part of the way things work for a very long time, humans have been able to use this gift that they were given to interact with one another so they can survive. A credible source is titled history of a trade by John Singleton, he talks about the benefits of being able to trade with one another as a society and how it allowed for civilization to thrive. The evidence he provides is from page 3 paragraph one where he states,” trading has been dated back to the Romans as they traded with one another to be able to thrive and get the essential goods they needed to survive.” This is significant because this provides a concrete example of the ancient ways of training and how physical interactions with one another allowed for the civilization to thrive. Not just physical interaction but every interaction on all aspects allowed for a better world to be created, without any of this civilization would be able to thrive into the beautiful place that it is now. One great example of this comes from the same article where The author John Singleton discusses how the roman empire fell. He states,” The Romans had one the best empires that lasted many years because of their ability to interact with others, once they stopped all of which they had built came to a great end.” This shows that when civilization works together anything can be achieved as long as they work through it together. This piece of evidence also does a great job of really explaining how when the world stops working together a lot of great civilizations start to fall and no longer can contribute to the evolution of the planet. Another source that is credible and peers reviewed is titled romantic physical affection. Multiple peers came together to write this one paper about the impacts of romantic relationships on the human species. In this source, it says,” Romantic relationships have existed since the beginning of time as humans do it and other species do it as well, it is very beneficial for preventing extinction within the species that require this to survive.” This quote directly supports the idea of the importance of interactions because humans use them to survive and live their daily lives. When this gift is taken away people aren’t able to live and thrive. Having the ability to interact with one another in any shape or form allows for people to feel whole and be overall happy.

In early 2019 the coronavirus started to emerge and the people of the world didn’t take it seriously, they laughed at it and people were even excited about things shutting down thinking it wouldn’t last so long. Little did they know that 2 years of their lives would be stripped from them and the world would never be the same again. Covid 19 took a lot of things from people, it took their jobs, their loved ones, their homes, their food, and worst of all it took away the one thing that humans thrive over which is the ability to interact with one another. Covid 19 something that was taken so lightly ended up doing more damage than anticipated. Covid 19 messed up the marketplace by having the cost of everything raised due to supply and demand. Many people were left jobless, unable to pay for a place to live or something to eat. The worst part of it all was that people couldn’t interact with each other leading to more depression found and teens and a world left confused and broken afterward. An article that backs up the claim that post covid teens were negatively affected by it is from the article titled To get their lives back, Teens volunteer for vaccine trials by Jan Hoffman. Jeff talks about how he interviewed a bunch of teens and found that” I interviewed over 100 kids and all their answers were the same, they all said that they felt more alone than ever when they were isolated for two years not being able to do anything but sit at home and talk to no one.” This quote is significant because it brings light to the struggles that teens faced within that period. After all, they were all alone for such a long time which led them to feel depressed. Another article that provides support to this claim is from What do you want your parents to know about what it’s like to be a teenager during the pandemic? by Jeremy Engle. Jeremy claims that teens parents couldn’t possibly know what their kids are going through during and after the pandemic because they had been closed off from the world for such a long time leading to many of them feeling bad about themselves and hiding it from their parents The quote that supports this is,” I took 100 parents and quizzed them separately from their kids and found that more than half of the parents had no idea the struggle that their kids were faced with at all.” The emphasis of this quote depicts the whole idea of how teenagers were stripped from the ability to be able to interact with anyone the most during this time, which is a crucial part for teens as their brains are still developing and growing. This pandemic put a hold on everything and now we get to see the impacts it has made. 

 This is why not just physical but any interactions, in general, are beneficial to the evolution of humans because when they interact it shows that they are not the only ones who are struggling in this hard world. Another credible source is The first sense, a philosophical study of human affection. By Mathew Fulkerson, Mathew Fulkerson talks about the importance of human affection and the key role it plays in the world. Mathew states,” If humans were able to show affection more often they would be happier and more successful overall.” This quote heavily appeals to the idea of people interacting with each other as it is shown to benefit society very often. This connects back to the idea that people need to be able to interact and stop following what others do because they feel like it would be cool.

Physical interactions also have a major impact on mental health as a whole because  people need to be able to interact with each other so that they can have the opportunity to experience love and other emotions without all of that depression and loneliness. A study made in 2019 by Helen Schummacher found that “men are more likely to kill themselves in more aggressive ways then women and seek less help” This discovery allows people to see how much mental health is being overlooked because people are killing themselves because they are depressed which is caused by them feeling alone. Another piece of evidence used is a graph that explains the connection of teens who are lonely that have comitted suicide because they weren’t able to interact with others and felt left out. This stat shows more light on the bigger picture at hand which is mental health as a whole and how much social interaction plays a bigger role in the world that we live in. The author also does an amazing job at conveying with the audience the importance it is to take mental action in these types of situations because it allows you to be able to grow and learn. The Author states,” suicide is the second leading cause of death for those between the ages of 10 and 34 in the united states.” This quote proves how severe this issue is because we have little kids suffering from killing themselves because their mental health isn’t where it needs to be. The author does a great job using an understatement to show how the issue impacts society without upsetting anyone. 

Therefore in conclusion the impacts of interactions can be both a positive and negative thing because it plays a much bigger role as let on in society. The more we neglect the issues in the world the more they build and affect one another. Mental health is impacted by lack of interactions and it leads to higher suicidce rates and fallen empires overtime if not. Covid was a rough time for everyone because the depression rates rose because people were stuck at home for two years not interacting.

References

Engle J. What do you want your parents to know about what it’s like to be a teenager during the pandemic? [Online]. The New York Times The New York Times: 2020. https://www.nytimes.com/2020/11/03/learning/what-do-you-want-your-parents-to-know-about-what-its-like-to-be-a-teenager-during-the-pandemic.html?searchResultPosition=6 [18 Jan. 2022]. 

Hoffman J. To get their lives back, teens volunteer for Vaccine Trials [Online]. The New York Times The New York Times: 2021. https://www.nytimes.com/2021/02/16/health/covid-vaccine-teens.html?searchResultPosition=5 [18 Jan. 2022]. 

EBSCOhost Research Platform: EBSCO [Online]. EBSCO Information Services, Inc. | www.ebsco.com. https://www.ebsco.com/products/ebscohost-research-platform [18 Jan. 2022]. 

Reviewed by John Schwenkler, FSU. The first sense: A philosophical study of human touch [Online]. Notre Dame Philosophical Reviews: 2018. https://ndpr.nd.edu/reviews/the-first-sense-a-philosophical-study-of-human-touch/ [18 Jan. 2022]. 

Suicide Facts and Figures. (n.d.). American Foundation for Suicide Prevention. https://supporting.afsp.org/index.cfm?fuseaction=cms.page&id=1226&cmsContentSetID=D5C4DC12-C299-258B-B0B6FCF9EF015CE0&language=en

Schumacher, H. (n.d.). Why more men than women die by suicide. BBC Future. https://www.bbc.com/future/article/20190313-why-more-men-kill-themselves-than-women

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LIT Devices short story 

   

Once upon a time there were these kids who grew up in the hood but they had these dreams that one day, they will actually make it out of the hood. Omar is the main character and Omar gets bullied a lot in school, he gets called names and gets beat up a lot. Omar gets bullied because he’s a short dude with goals to play pro basketball one day. Omar values practicing his skills because he knows that one day he will go pro. One day Omar was watching Tv and he saw an ad about basketball. The ad said “Too short to ball, come on down to the lab and we’ll make you pro.” Omar absolutely loved this ad because he had been short his whole life and wanted to play pro ball so bad. Omar was terrified to go to the lab because he had his doubts instilled in his head about going pro because he feels too short to ever make it. Omar is in self doubt at the moment so he asks his best friend who is also in love with named Ben and Ben also plays basketball so Ben Resures Omar that everything will be okay so they both go together. Ben identifies as a male but sometimes as a mother because he is still figuring themself out. Bern also has a crush on Omar but Omar doesn’t know that yet. SO AS the reader you’re probably wondering what’s going on well that’s very simple this isn’t just a basketball story this is a basketball love story. The reason that they like each other is because they’re the only ones in the town thats gay. But one day there’s a transfer student named Preston who moved there from Cali. Preston is a basketball player who also turns out to be gay he, but he feels left out because he doesnt have any friends. Omar is a compulsive liar because he says that he is that he is the best basketball player in the school but he isn’t but he also believes that one day he will be 6’6 but he’s an 18 year old senior in highschool. Then they all got killed by a meteor.

        The END

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Final Essay Outline

First I will organize my essay with all my ideas so that I can have everything set out for me.

  • Research
  • Choose
  • Write
  • Find good evidence 
  • Cite
  • Analyze 
  • Take break
  • Continue to write
  • Add vocab without saying the word
  • Be interesting but not so specific

When I finish this routine I’ll wrap it up and do my apa style citations and do all my touch ups on my work while receiving peer review. I’ll apply that feedback and do make a better essay.

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